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Happy New Year?

Well, another year has ticked over…  Another day, another dollar.

I have been working on editing my first story and although it is finished (the first edit stage) I have a feeling that it needs something else, needs more depth and I am not sure why.  I am waiting to hear back from Michelle and Sandy to see what they think before I go any further with it, but I think the characters need more depth and I am unsure how to go about it.  Might have to investigate on the internet a little bit further.

I have joined the publishing in 2009 challenge on the KiwiWriters website, and I might also have to join the Rejection club also.  General consensus is that an agent is the best option, but I have one publisher I want to try first before passing the story to some agents.  It might take me all year just to get an agent who will read it!  So that is my next big mission, to find an agent.  If, for some really strange reason, the publisher does accept it, then I will ask their advise and see what they think.  According to what I have read, agents get a percentage of the sale of the manuscript and don’t get paid before hand, so it will be interesting to see what really happens.  I just have to get my foot in the door!

Post Christmas Blues

Christmas, although commemorating the birth of Christ, and should be a joyace occasion, has never been anything but another day for me for a very long time.  Since I became adult enough to know that Santa does not exist and that it is my parents, family and friends who provide the presents, Christmas has lost all of its appeal.  I thought as Billy got older it might be more enjoyable, but no, it is just another day where you get presents that you asked for because no one can think or know what you want.  And then afterwards, everyone is off on their hyper little world, enjoying their Christmas break and you are left wondering, why did I go to the bother of making an effort.  All that effort to make your family happy and you didn’t get any thanks for it apart from “Nice spread, well done.”  What did I want to hear?  “hey honey, you did an awesome job, now sit down and spend some time with your parents.”  “Honey, I love you, thanks for the awesome day, you spoilt me rotten.”

Treat me how you want to be treated, well now I know.  I will drink until I am drunk them abuse the hell out of you and wonder why you don’t want to talk to me or their are tears falling down your face.  Does it hurt you too or am I the only one with feelings?  You say you love me too, it is an automatic response.  I used to give it once, it didn’t mean anything to me.  Would it hurt you to say “I love you” first? And actually mean it?

Why does Christmas always seem to be when family tensions come to the head, I think I know why, because someone puts a lot of love and effort into it, and the person they did it for doesn’t seem to really care. 

This is the last Christmas I do.

And in the process, I have added 4,000 words – I really wanted to add 30,000, but somehow I think it will just take away from the story than add to it.  Still, I am thrilled that in my edit, I have managed to add so many words.  At least a thousand are from a new scene I added.

Things are gearing up for Christmas, hard to believe it is only 2 days away, it feels more like two weeks.  I had the Christmas spirit earlier on, but I have lost it now, and just want it over and done with. 

The story is coming along nicely, it has some nice flow, and having finished the series and coming back to the first one was definitely the best idea.  I have totally rearranged the prophesies and now they are making so much sense to me, and Michelle likes them too, which is a bonus.

For the last two weeks, Mum, Bobba, Kerry, Billy and I have been touring the South Island, to visit friends, family and the Burt Munro Memorial – a wicked weekend of fast action, thrills and spills!  It was a great way to unwind and relax.

We stopped in Chch on the way down for a night, then spent 4 nights in Dunedin, where we shopped, visited museums and Chinese Gardens (highly recommend this one!).  We went to Mataura which was to be our base for the weekend of the Burt Munro Memorial Run, Kerry, Bobba, Jen and I went to the Beach races on Friday night.  We all went to Teretonga and then the Street races at Wyndham.

On the way home, we came via Lumsden and Kingston where Billy got to see the Kingston Flyer.  He was very much impressed.  We had a brief visit to Queenstown where we saw the Earnslaw coming in to dock.  We then headed north, via Lindis Pass to Tekapo, where we discovered that the van had cooked itself.  We limped into Fairlie where we stayed the night.  The next day, Bobba, on hearing that the van was not in an immediately repairable state, arranged to have it trucked to Chch with Mum, Billy and I in the truck and Kerry and Bobba on their motorbikes.  It was a long ride and we decided to stay the night in chch to recover.  After a brief trip to the mall, tea and a swim, we had an early night before getting up early for the trip home the next day. 

Billy behaved himself beautifully the whole trip, but the last day was the last straw for him, he just wanted to get home, he had had enough!

I was anxious to get back too, so I could finish editing the final book and start the next draft of the first book.  I am quite excited about it and can’t wait to get started.  I have a couple of ideas to add to the story, but will have to see whether they will fit in.  They certainly won’t add 20,000 words, but with more description I think I can manage that.  If I can get that edit done and get the book ready for publishing by early next year I will be happy.  The next big step will be getting it out to publishers.  I will have to check through KiwiWriters just what is out there.

Well, that’s really my fortnight in review.  Back to the real world tomorrow… :o(

I’ve Finished!

I have actually done it, I have finished writing the third story, I now have a working trilogy – WOW!

I can’t believe I have finally actually finished – well, yes I can actually, I have finished what I set out to do and that was make a story I loved writing when I was at school, so much better and more readable – I’ve done it!

158,000 words in all three of them, this one is the longest, but once I have done the breif revision and got Michelle to check it, we will go back to the beginning and revise and edit the first book – The Journey Home and get it up to a publishable standard, because I want to get it out to the publishers early next year while the other two books are being edited / revised.  I am quite excited about this now, I can’t wait to get it out to the publishers and see what they think of it.

Now we are heading away for a long holiday down to Otago and Southland, so looking forward to having a break and the revision will start when I get back – fresh eyes to look at it, and hopefully be critical enough to make the necessary changes.  Can’t wait to get back to the first book and re-read it, see how my writing style has changed over the three books – hopefully not too much.  I do know I need more description in the first book to bring it up to the same standard as this one.

Michelle has started to read the Rise of the Chrystias and she told me she is really enjoying it, that it is gripping and she loved the first twist in it.  Hopefully she will like the others as well and it doesn’t look too much like I am floundering around.  She will be able to tell me when she has finished it.  I really value her opinion, she has been so helpful and I have found her advise quite inspirational.  THANK YOU MICHELLE!

This is something that I have discussed before, but thought it would be a good idea to bring it here too.

My ideas come from a variety of sources.  The idea for the Chrystias series actually came from my best friend at school, Claudia, who gave me the starting of a scene which was a dream of hers, that I could use to do a 6th form English project.  I worked on it all year and came up with this story which actually got good marks from my English teachers, they seemed impressed with it.

But I also get ideas from dreams, I have a journal I keep of dreams that come to me, I have several that I would like to turn into stories, but at the moment, they are just mulling around.  There is one where I dreamt that a woman was betrothed to a man she did not know and she was forced to marry him.  She ran away, but he followed her and having compassion on her he tried to work out the relationship away from the society that they lived in, she eventually fell in love with him, but it is all a penny dreadful tale really, just set in a fantasy setting.

Movies and book also give me ideas or at least concepts that I can expand on.  I love to read, although since having my son I have not done a lot of reading lately, but I have been trying to get back into it.  Watching Basic Instinct provided me with a basis for an unsolved murder mystery based in a futuristic Nelson, unfortunately it happened about the same time as an unsolved murder happened in Nelson for real, so I have a strange feeling that if I solve my murder, the Nelson murder will be solved also.

I got an idea the other day from some research I was doing for a fancy dress party, I went as a Gothic Vampyre and decided to research it so I didn’t look like a complete prat, instead I found a whole society that has developed, and now I want to write a story involving NZ and a vampire.  This will involve a lot of research, but I am willing to do it if I can come up with something that can be used at schools to provide a unique perspective on historical events in NZ.

Ideas come from strange places, my own experiences, another story idea I have is about a husband and wife who struggle with their own marriage after the husband discovers his wife having an internet affair.  This is going to be based on true events and may help me to determine why it happened in the first place, or at least let Kerry know from my point of view.  If it can help another couple out there, I will be pleased with that!

Every day events around me inspire me, I wrote a short story once about the sea and how it stole a lover because she was jealous – it was a powerful story, one I have never entered into a competition because then it was so real to me.  Kerry has since stopped fishing and I have not really had the heart to publish it, here or anywhere.

So those are just some of my musings, ideas, concepts, thoughts, dreams, reality, it is the world that I create for my own amusement, and if others enjoy it, then they are welcome to come along for the ride.  :o)

What a day!

Dropped Billy off at Nanna’s yesterday and Kerry went to Maruia this afternoon.  I cleaned the hallway walls, kitchen walls and ceiling while he was here, because I had to climb up a tall ladder to reach the ceiling in the kitchen, and after he left I mopped the floors, which left the rest of the day for me. 

I have managed to write 4500 words today, which is a great accomplishment.  I have done 10400 so far this month, which is pretty cool, because it is the 8th Day and I am taking part in the Kiwi Writers +25k challenge.  I am nearly half way there!

Election day today, it looks like National are going to win – not surprising really.  I voted for ACT for my party vote, and Steve Richards (McGillicuddy Serious Party) for my MP vote – just because I didn’t know who else to vote for!

Anyway, about my writing, I have now completed the climax to the story, I just need to fill in the blanks.  This one is going to be longer than 50,000 words, but I want it to be anyway.  Once this one is finished and Michelle has checked it, we will go back to the beginning and start a serious edit.  I have some notes that I have made about what I want to improve, and once that is edited, I suppose it will be sent out to the publishers, which will be a nerve wracking experience, but then I will be able to join the rejection club at Kiwi Writer!  Looking forward to celebrating my failures, if it is accepted, I will certainly be celebrating that to.

Looks like I will be starting the new year with a book ready to be sent to publishers – very exciting, with two following very quickly behind hopefully.  At least I have them completed, so that should keep the publisher happy for a while!

I received a note back from Mallinson Rendel Publishing last week, they have received The Drain Monster and will get back to me in due course.  It was great that they acknowledged receiving it.  Hope that something comes of it, but won’t be too disappointed if it doesn’t, at least Billy loved it, and that is all that matters really!

Venting!

Why do I get so angry!  Kerry is not helping the matter either. 

His ex has decided that she is going to come out and visit Cyree, which is fine, Cyree can’t stand the woman, tells me this and thinks of all the excuses under the sun for not having her out, then when she rings, she says, yeah sure – why not!  I have to wonder why people can’t say and do what they mean!

I was angry about this because she is also going to want to come here and have a coffee and I don’t want that woman in my house.  How many times do I have to say that!

And Kerry – “Whats up with you?”  Like he wants to start a fight.  Can I not be angry with people on my own?  Can I not just have my anger all to myself and just leave me be?  I had to clean the house today, and vacuum which is not something I can actually get done during the week, and instead I have had to make sure my house is immaculate so Kerry can play happy families with his bloody ex!  Why can’t he grow balls and stand up to the woman.  Why does he treat her so differently from me?  Why can’t he tell her he only wants to deal with his sons and not have to listen to all her bullshit! 

The house is tidy, and I am unavailable this afternoon – I might just disappear for a couple of hours – I don’t know where, but I will think of something!

It takes a lot of guts to let others read your story and is definitely a large step towards publishing. I have a girlfriend locally who reads my stories and helps with the editing process, she reads a lot of fantasy (which is funny, because I don’t, yet I write it!), but her help has been invaluable. The benefit of writing fiction is that you get to create your own world, have things happen the way you want them to happen, mind you the whole story process is about creating your own reality.

Does that mean that writers can’t stand their own world and want to create a different world to live in?

My world is pretty cool, I have a wonderful husband that I love with all my heart, a beautiful son who is just so full on, two lovely step sons and a little house a small country village.  I have a flourishing garden, a creative streak that sometimes takes shape as beading creations and sometimes as writing.  I love who I am right now, a mother, a wife, a friend, a daughter, I am happy with my own body, my own skin.  Maybe writing has allowed me to reach this point, to write out my agressive, angry, nasty, evil feelings and making them owned by someone else.  I think that is why I write, to express myself emotionally so that I can explain why I am like I am, and I like that.

So, letting the world see my writing, well I haven’t done that yet, my Mum is the only one who has access to this site, maybe one day I will allow others to look at it too, but at this stage, it is a personal thing, a place where I can safely let off steam without it coming back to bite me in the arse!

Where to from here?

I have hit a bit of a technical snag though, my story revolves around some semiprecious stones, which hold the key to the whole story.  I have just introduced two more stones that will bring it all together and when fitted all together the stones are used to contain a thousand souls.  The original warlock destroyed the stone and dispersed it to stop the stone from ever being used again, but another warlock is bringing them together so that they cannot be used against him, however I am a bit lost as to what to do with the stones.  Do they all come together and then they suck the souls out of him?  Why are they so important, they need the souls to keep the balance of good and evil, so they can’t dispose of the souls entirely either.

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